Wake Up, Lloyd!

Because of addiction,

Kept postponing my work, my studies...
All the responsibilities that were and still entitled to me...
I delayed ALL of them...
Simply because I DON'T WANT to face them...
All because of my laziness, my greediness over indulging a lay-backed lifestyle...
And the only solution I came up with is to ESCAPE.
ESCAPE through gaming, youtubing, facebooking...
All of these under a simple word called PROCRASTINATION...

And what happen's when I'm forced to face them?
By the time that I face, it's usually at the very last minute...
And all my negativity spurred up like a jet engine...
Spreading, contaminating to those who I cherish and love...
In the end, I will be ending up getting remorseful and regretful for
all the bad actions I made,
all the harmful things I said.
all to the people I hold dearly...

And previously I lied to myself that I'm just have a time to relax myself...
But now I know relax comes in various forms,
but certainly, putting myself indulging into gaming isn't the way to go...
If it was back then when I'm still doing things as a lone wolf, I don't mind too much of getting myself procrastinated...
However, right now I have a team behind me, a family and friends willing to back me up whenever I fall...
How can I waste such time indulging in something that would just give me momentarily satisfactory?

What about living?
What about the dreams?
What about the places YOU wanted to explore? All the adventures you wanted to unravel?
What happened to ALL of them?

Did it all got buried while YOU'RE playing your precious DOTA? Or wasting time doing things that doesn't even bring any sense?

Time is wasting, Lloyd. And you know that. YOU know it clearly in your heart...

Just that, YOU kept forgetting... You are always... asleep...

But now is the time to CHANGE. Now that I'm AWARE. I promise myself I will always be AWARE...
Always be mindful of my thoughts...
Always remember what my heart really wants...
Not in momentarily happiness...
but to achieve HAPPINESS LIVIN'...

I, Lloyd Teoh promised myself right now, to always be MINDFUL of my thoughts, and always remember my goals and not to fall nor stray from my path, If I ever do so, may I have the strength to forgive myself, and keep reminding myself to push hard. to break through.

May my mind always be in the RIGHT THOUGHTS and CONSCIOUSNESS.
May the triple gems forever always be in my heart.

Lloyd, You can do it, I know you can.

Peace out.

P/s: 记得不要再活出死人的生活了！加油！