So what brings me to blog in this lovely and serene evening? Well, its because of this feeling I just experienced and I wanted to jot it down so that I can remind my future-self to be this way whenever and wherever I can.
Tonight's post will be again, about her. Hahaha, but this will not be one of those "emo" posts, trust me :)
Just seen her photo in Facebook about half an hour ago, and as I see her face closely and attentively for the first time in some time, I noticed something. Other than her smile being just as beautiful as always, there was something more to it - she's happy. From that photo itself, I can see that she was truly enjoying herself and being happy as how she can be right now.
And in that very moment, in my heart, there's not one sense of hatred, anger, sadness or any other negativity you can think of. What was in my mind during that time was: "Wow, you are smiling so beautifully and you do seem like you are happy." At that very moment itself, I knew I had let go of the past (or at least the sad stuffs that happened and how we hurt each other). And then my thought was simply this:
"I am my own happiness, and I don't need to depend on anyone to achieve that happiness, and same goes to you. I don't care if you are being with another person right now or still being single. I just wish the best for you, I hope you are happy, I hope you are safe. And I don't need you for me to be happy. But I'm happy for you because
I love you."
I love you."
So, I guess this is something what Xiong Mama and Xiong Papa trying to preach us - Metta, which is unconditional love. And surely, it feels GREAT. And of course, I have to admit lately when thinking of her, its not about the pain any more, but about how we were happy and how it's a pity right now that we are not able to be together. So this time, maybe you can say, its another type of unwillingness to let go. However, I think what's best for now is to not dwell in the past, whether is a sad past or happy ones and start living in the "now".
To whoever reading this or whether it is the people I know or don't know,
YOU ARE AND WILL ALWAYS BE AWESOME! (Including myself, haha)
May you be well and happy. :)
PEACE OUT & Love you berry much <3
To whoever reading this or whether it is the people I know or don't know,
YOU ARE AND WILL ALWAYS BE AWESOME! (Including myself, haha)
May you be well and happy. :)
PEACE OUT & Love you berry much <3
(Oh! And not to forget, Finals Hwaiting~!)
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| Photo Credits to Jason Mraz's "Love is a Four Letter Word" Album Cover |
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