Lately I can feel myself running out of battery, as if all the energy in me has been drained out. Other than feeling tired of doing my usual busy stuffs (study, assignment, reports and camp stuffs), I can feel myself sometimes feeling irritated and get angry easier, always with negative emotions.
So what caused me to have such issue?
I guess I've been putting myself in too much things, especially in planning events and activities. This results in me forgetting to be aware of my body and thoughts. Maybe I have been overdoing, forgetting that myself as an individual who needed to be attend and taken care of.
Maybe is also the people problems I encountered during my previous event (爱早), that causes me to spill a lot of negative emotions/thoughts. This is due to the people and the habits they have that made me feel uncomfortable and even "BO SONG". Haha.
However, coming back to myself, I guess this is a homework that I should solve. All this while, perhaps my mind and body is telling me to take plenty of rest and have a lot of "Me-time" to recharge my life-battery.
But seriously, I can feel that lately I have ran out of LOVE energy. What used to be a habit of mine to give encouragement to others and also be happy for others, now seem like something I couldn't find in me any more. It might be because of the tiredness and also the anger, dissatisfaction that are stirring inside me, but one thing is for sure is, I need to give myself a lot more LOVE than ever.
Hopefully I can always be aware of my thoughts and discover more about the reason behind this dissatisfaction.
So, right now, I have to continue observe these emotions and thoughts. Accept more of myself, accept my current condition and embrace it.
So these are the things i wish to say to myself:
Lloyd,
You did well recently, but don't forget you are a man, not a superhuman. You need space and time to relax too. Be with yourself more when you have the time, and love yourself. Remember, a string that is too tight will eventually break! Ai ni yo~~ :D
